Excerpt from my book – untitled as yet.
Thursday, 29 December 2016 – 10:49am
It’s fascinating to me that as I re-read some of the Seth material that I first began reading twenty years ago that it mirrors almost exactly what I’ve been writing about of late. Perhaps it could be said that all of the information that I ‘channel’ is in fact stored long-term memory, but even that kind of detailed recall would still be impressive, considering there is no real conscious effort on my part to recall the information. However, I know that the source of the knowledge I channel is similar to the source of the knowledge Jane Roberts channelled, indeed it exists alongside my own perception of reality and time, and is readily available always. I will always consider Jane Roberts as a parallel self of mine. We share too many commonalities.
I can feel my own perception shifting, and I can sense the connection between atoms and their innate consciousness. There is a sort of free-flow of energy between me and the world around me, and I imagine the parallel yet seemingly invisible realities that occupy my space.
It’s difficult to talk about how personal reality might function when operating under the premise that reality follows belief expectation. If I say something is possible, then it becomes possible, which suggests that in our current framework of beliefs that there are many truths at play at any given moment. Yet according to the premise one is not more valuable than the other. Though that too is just a belief. I think the problems occur when certain beliefs are dismissed as being invalid in favour of those that fit personal models best. And perhaps that’s the point of all this, that I am being encouraged to value my own beliefs and trust in my own integrity. I’m clearly aware that that is exactly the message I have been given all these years, in both the Seth material and my own work. Deliberating over the details is a pointless exercise and likely to just cause more confusion and tension. Finding the value in being me and what that means in the scope of my earthly existence is precisely my purpose. That’s it in a nutshell.
Lately I’ve been pondering the very idea that stating any kind of belief will automatically limit and define information received and shared. My logical brain then asks what’s the point of following such threads if ultimately they are fallacious, or rather not the only possible truths that exist?
And the resounding answer to that would be that it’s all valid, and that all avenues of thought and self-expression are valid within the framework of perception that is considered important by the focus personality. Beliefs create physical objects. Indeed it could be said that physical objects, and the stuff of us and the world around us mirrors with great faith the nature of our personal and mass beliefs. Some are more rigid than others. The wind does not have the same structural integrity as a chair perhaps, at least not at a certain level of awareness, however, if broken down to the atomic level, then the wind and the chair are identical. Both are constructed by the same energetic forces, that follow the same impulses of expression.
I have always been aware to some degree that thoughts and emotions are not rooted in the individual. They don’t originate with the individual, but swim about in eddies and whirls of conscious patterns that are then picked up on by focus personalities that share commonalities. I’ve been getting demonstrations the last few days of exactly how this happens and how specific thoughts and idea constructs span conscious realities. It’s made me realise how two-dimensional my own thinking can be at times. I would love to develop a more multidirectional, multidimensional outlook. It would help greatly in alleviating the stress and confusion I often feel. I’m working on changing that. It says that some of the beliefs I have work in contradiction to my more open-minded ones about the nature of my reality.
Every statement of being I make is a belief. I don’t think all beliefs are hard and fast rules, but that they vary in degrees of focus. Some are brief in their existence, while others take firm hold like roots of a tree. Remembering that nothing is quite as binary as it seems is a big help. Language forces us to evaluate our experiences in very binary, and often overly simplistic terms, and although it serves a very important communicative function, it is more often than not a hindrance as far as I’m concerned in communicating most ideas with any kind of efficacy.
Right there then, are two very contradictory beliefs I have: that language is a beautiful medium of expression, but that it is also far too limited to be conducive to happiness. I have a lot of similar beliefs that are in direct contravention of the other. I believe therefore that language has the potential to both make me happy and unhappy.
I also believe that one’s use of language should be congruent with one’s internal emotions and thoughts, as the latter speak louder than words from my lifelong experience. Intent is always read the strongest over any words spoken. To some degree then, language is just a mask, and often fallacious. In that way it also works as a protective mechanism, though to my mind it only causes confusion and potential hurt when words are used divisively to mask intent. Like Seth says, we pretend not to notice these things in order to maintain the social equilibrium, or the illusion of congruence, even just to ourselves.
As I was reading the Seth material last night it occurred to me that the reason I can read other people’s thoughts and emotions is because their thoughts and emotions are my thoughts and emotions. This even spilled over into one of my dreams last night where I was explaining this to Bill who finished my sentence as if to demonstrate the principle. It further illustrates how thoughts and emotions being electromagnetic patterns of energy have no way of being contained, or constrained by the body or the individual focus personality. They have a reality of their own according to Seth and Sidiris, to which we become privy and actively a part of as we sharpen the focus of our intent.
I’ve witnessed this principle at work many times throughout my life. Many times I have focussed my intent in a certain direction, especially when expressing deep-seated desires, and suddenly the Universe seems to respond with as many possible permutations in answer to the request, which I’ve then had to sift through in order to find the match I’m looking for. This illustrates beautifully the way in which ideas really are not grounded in the individual at all, but are part of a much wider network of consciousness that appears to be in operation all of the time and cross-dimensionally. You have to think of each person as inhabiting their own personal dimension in order for this to really make sense, never mind any notion of dimension outside of our perception of physical human time, as we believe we understand it.
Each of us in this regard inhabits our own personal microcosm that is entirely unique to us, but not contained by us. We are each like atoms that converge with other atoms to form greater gestalts of being. I say greater in reference to collective patterns rather than implying a sense that the greater whole is better than the singular. Language is a pain [sigh]. Personal integrity is not lost, neither is the integrity of the collective gestalt. Both work in unison, which also means simultaneously and outside of any normal construct of time or dimension that we might refer to. It also helps to think of time and dimension as arbitrary concepts, points of reference only that allow us to categorise and communicate experience, rather than as scientific principles existing in their own right. They don’t. No belief can exist without our perceptive participation. It sounds like an odd thing to say, as that very statement is a belief in itself that is as clearly fallible as any other belief one might express in opposition. However, what I’m seeking to express is that we can only be aware of that which we are aware. All else is seemingly moot until it comes into the field of our awareness. I think however, that it’s true to say that there are a great many stimuli that we react to that we aren’t necessarily aware of at the usual level of waking, cerebral consciousness. Although, as Seth has been saying, paying attention to our thoughts and emotions at any given moment should give us clues as to the kinds of forces at work, and the kind of wider patterns of consciousness that we might be reacting to without even really knowing it. When we limit our conscious focus to verbal communication alone, be it internal reveries or interacting with others and the world around us, as I’m doing right now in writing about this, then other channels of quite valid input are either turned down or muted altogether. I suppose our level of focus dictates how much in control we feel of our circumstances. If we pay no heed or attempt to ignore our thoughts and emotions then we fail to see the wider effects of our conscious influences, and feel necessarily divorced from others and the world at large.
Getting past our own sense of amazement and sense that something odd and unusual is happening when we notice such connections is another thing entirely. The desire to panic because such things might not fit in with our usual modes of thinking is a real inhibitor in understanding the nature of our personal reality. However, it serves as a great firsthand demonstration of how our beliefs might be working. Personally I am past marvelling over the parlour-like trickery of coincidental experiences and the apparent mystery and magic of certain cross dimensional happenings. I talk to dead people for goodness sakes! By now I think I accept that my reality at least, is not the reality I was taught to pay attention to as a child. I have always been aware that my take on reality has been utterly unique, though not isolated and separate from that of others. When you know from a young age what others are thinking, in the broadest terms, when you can sense their intent and moods, and when you know that others can sense yours too, then no separation between thinking minds and beating hearts exists, no matter how hard you try to reconcile with the possibility that its all a fiction. But I’ve never been incorrect in my estimations in this regard. I might have been ill-equipped at times to verbalise what I felt with absolute certainty, but again that’s the nature of linguistic limitation at work, more than anything else.
It seems that my whole life has been a process of my granting myself permission to be the person I was already as a young kid, hyper-aware and not fooled by conventional social beliefs. Then as now I very much believed in the power of personal agency, so making me do anything I didn’t want to do was a pointless exercise. In that way I have always exercised a strong instinct. I trust my senses more than I trust words. For me the electromagnetic reality and tangibility of thoughts and emotions has always been most obvious, despite the words of others that have tried to coerce me in believing otherwise. I suppose it would seem obvious then, that my trust in others has potentially been shaky at the best of times, especially when I’ve noticed an incongruence between their emotive intent and their words. I only ever judge people by the energy they personify. It is often more honest than the words they use.
Electromagnetic communication of ideas and emotions is instantaneous in comparison to any kind of verbal communication, which takes an unnecessary amount of time it seems to me. A stalling tactic at best, and a time-filler. Entire worlds of imagination have been created and explored by the time a verbal conversation has run its course. And if we consider this in literal terms, as Seth and the Sidiris would have us believe, then the magnitude or our ability to ignore all of this other non-verbal communication and data is utterly astounding. I for one feel bereft that I might be missing out on so much!
However, I am reminded once again that valuing all tenets of the self is an important exercise too. For when we dismiss portions of ourselves, then we also dismiss the potential to learn and expand our awareness in new and creative ways. All avenues of thought if followed will lead to creative and revelatory ends. It’s ok to have bad and unhealthy thoughts. Nobody says we have to be ‘pure’ of mind in order to lead fulfilling lives. In fact, I believe the opposite is just as true. The more open and creative we allow our minds to be, the more fulfilled we will feel and the less likely that frustrations and tensions will accumulate to be expressed in unhealthy and non-beneficial ways.
Trusting in our own abilities, and having faith in the integrity of our personhood is something that cannot be stressed enough. We are all valuable, and of value to the worlds and realities that we are participant in. We form an integral part of wider consciousness. Without us, the other could not exist. That’s a big thing to say if I think about it, and it makes me feel both humble and empowered.
Money for me is a symbol of possibility. I believe that money opens up opportunities like a key unlocks a door. It’s simple and immediate.
Now, I wish I had a bigger income so that I could afford to see my children more frequently, and so that Bill and I could buy properties elsewhere, and so that we could travel where we wanted to in the world. However, I have a counter belief that wealth is not easy to come by, although in certain regards I recognise that it is a fallacious belief, and that I am more than capable of changing the belief to suit me better. If I create my own reality then there should be nothing to stop me creating the reality I desire, except for the inhibitor of other contradictory beliefs. For example, I don’t subscribe to the popular notion that money is the root of all evil, I think people and verbal language fill that slot quite adequately. I do appear to subscribe to the notion that money is hard earned to a degree because I have been told most of my life by others I have respected that this is so. Even though a reinforcement in a belief that I was wealthy for the past 15 years at least has led to me not having to worry about money anymore. I am much more wealthy now than I have ever been in my life. Yet not wealthy enough. Perhaps my lack of freedom is due to a belief in not feeling as though I have full command of my reality all of the time. The awareness of such seems to elude me often.
Seth suggests that changing my sleeping habits may help in this regard as sleeping for smaller blocks of time should generate a better sense of connection between corporeal and non-corporeal realities. I can see how that would be the case, and so I’ve started with following the suggestions.
Physical distance for example should not be a barrier to experience as it is merely a style of perception dictated by a belief in physical distance being an objective thing. Given what I know about the nature of non-verbal communication and the way it which it operates outside of the law of known physics, then this is obviously an inhibiting belief that has no validity otherwise. I believe in the myth of physical distance because there is a part of me that is used to subscribing in part to social politics and structures. We all want to feel as though we fit it, even at the cost of our own valid though often conflicting beliefs. I can only keep reinforcing the notion that physical distance is not a ‘thing’ at all. Again, it is a convenience of perception that in itself should be a clue as to the nature of one’s thoughts and personal impulses.
In exploring new possibilities the scenery about you will often change in accordance with the new beliefs being exercised. Therefore the change in physical scenery should be an indicator of the change that is also occurring within you. It is a constant process too. With every journey taken in a car, bus, train, plane, boat, there is also an internal, psychological journey that is being undertaken that will invariably lead to new revelations about our personal natures and equally the nature of the the world around us. In fact, engaging in pursuits that marry physical action with imaginative exploration is the best form of therapy when it comes to overcoming difficulties and blockages, and will create fast-tracks, so to speak, to highly beneficial experiences if allowed to unfold willingly.
In order to promote a healthy system of beliefs, you have to first believe in the integrity of your abilities. In order to entertain others with your ideas and stories through the written word for example, you first have to believe in your ability to write well, and trust that it’s more than ok to be your own biggest fan. Without a sense of personal integrity we then rely on others for the approval we seek, and will invariably sell ourselves short, and think ourselves arrogant and full of false hope if we try to believe otherwise. It’s an unhealthy pattern of belief however, to curtail our own innate sense of grace and creativity in favour of exercising the very Christian notion of selflessness. There is nothing arrogant about believing in oneself. In fact, self-belief is quite necessary in the act of moment to moment survival. Without self-belief, we would not have any beliefs at all, and be quite incapable of functioning as human beings.
Many of our more detrimental beliefs are tied into social belief structures and involve us pandering to them by way of ensuring our continued participation. They often have little to do with our own personal belief structures which may in fact be at odds with them.
“Life does not revolve around a singular principle of longevity. Life is quite devoid of such linear purpose, and does not currently function within such restrictive parameters. Life is an energy gestalt of which you are an inherent part, but which does not originate within your personal or your known universe. The life that you think of as your own is but a composite of ideas that in their own way have a validity and reality beyond that which you believe to be merely your own. You cannot therefore damage the integrity of life, whether the definition pertains to yourself or that of another. Destruction and death are merely facets and possible outcomes of life exploring its nature as it knows best. Life is no more incidental or accidental than you or your neighbour. Belief structures are you life-blood, but not your keepers. You are no more bound by your beliefs than a stream is bound by its banks. Water evaporates under certain conditions as your beliefs evaporate and are replaced by new beliefs. The ever-changing nature of your personhood is constantly being reinforced by a deep knowledge and trust in the evolution of your life.